“I could be cured, if i could make it simply through the storm” – Marc-André Grondin in CRAZY (2005) directed by Jean-Marc Vallée
Since Pride Month is coming to an end, I thought I would remind people of a film that really struck chord in me. This was said as a prayer, a moment of desperation, where the character did not like he who was and desperately wanted it to be taken away from him; this desire in him. He walked for hours through a snow storm wishing that it would cure him of this “illness”. He reaches his home, with his face covered in ice and tears falling down his face realizing that it is a part of him. It is a why-me moment as much as it is a realization that this is him and he either has to live his life in misery repressing only to satisfy those around him, or he can live proudly and happily. He can do the most with what he has been given, which is be himself – the best you can do for the world. This shows how contrary it is to some people believing that it is “not really who you are” and “you could be fixed”. Those who have struggled with their sexuality can relate to this prayer or whatever you want to call it. It is a point where you are willing to do anything, at some points even take your own life, so you can be rid of being different.
“The art spirit sort of became the art life, and I had this idea that you drink coffee, you smoke cigarettes, and you paint, and that’s it. Maybe, maybe, girls come into it a little bit, but basically it’s the incredible happiness of working and living that life.” – David Lynch in David Lynch: The Art Life (2016) directed by Jon Nguyen.
I recommend this film to anyone who is a film buff, a lover of aesthetics, or even just a lover of stories. You definitely do not have to be a fan of Lynch’s to enjoy it. I love this quote because it just lets go of all that romanticism that surrounds making art and shows you the simple reality of it. That reality is what attracted Lynch to it; not the escapism or otherworldliness of it, it is the drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes of it
“You’ll never have me.” – Patricia Arquette in Lost Highway directed by David Lynch (1997)
Words that might as well have been uttered by every femme fatale out there.
This is the shot right after she says it.
Plantiveau, le concierge: Watch out, ma’am. That’s the deep part where you are.
Christina Delassalle: There is no danger. I can swim.
Plantiveau, le concierge: That don’t mean a thing. It’s always the ones who know how that get drowned. The ones who can’t, don’t go near the pool.
– Les Diabolique (1955) directed by Henri-Georges Clouzot
“Yes she takes advantage of Helena, yes she fascinates her and she knows it. You can decide not to look any further but I had to because I played her. You’re just talking about what’s on the surface.
The play is about what attracts them to each other.” – Juliette Binoche in Clouds of Sils Maria (2014) dir. Olivier Assayas
I’ve never come across a film that talks about the importance of perspective with this intensity before. We all have our reasons and we are all to blame at the same time. In the end there is no such thing as the real truth and there is no such thing as reality, just your reality.
“Well, it’s not always the same. I have good days and bad days. And on my good days, I can, you know, almost pass for a normal person. On my bad days, I feel like I can’t find myself. I’ve always been so defined by my intellect my language, my articulation, and now sometimes I can see the words hanging in front of me, and I can’t reach them, and I don’t know who I am, and I don’t know what I’m gonna lose next.” – Alice Howland played by Julianne Moore in Still Alice (2014, Richard Glatzer & Wash Westermoreland)
This scene is just one of the many scenes that show us the limitless talent of Julianne Moore. We see what it looks like when someone finally asks you the question: What’s it like? What does it actually feel like? (asked by her daughter, played by Kristen Stewart) Her slow start of answering the question, trying to find her words, her way of expressing herself, she takes her time because she knows this is a rare moment, that someone cares enough to ask. But then the execution of the last line, the part that has affected her the most, shows how much anger she holds for this disease that has taken away everything she’s worked hard for all her life in such a small time frame.
“When you grow up, your heart dies” – Breakfast Club (1985) directed by John Hughes
I’ve always found it difficult to understand someone like John Hughes who has dedicated his whole life’s work on how it’s like being an adolescent. But I see now why the poetry of an adolescent can be compelling with how raw it is and how uncensored it is. There is only an eagerness to express oneself and a lack of experience that comes with it and that results with a kind of truth not found anywhere else.